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Just Some Life's Update

My mind has been quieter, my heart has been lighter and I don't overthink as much now. Life seems easier but the emptiness, it's still there - though casually. 

Life does way better than it was years back but the thought of being not good enough can't be easily get rid of. I know I'm enough but sometimes, there'll still words creeping in saying otherwise.

I don't envy much of others' lives and I found myself not fancying too much of what others have (which I don't) anymore. However, I do feel belittled sometimes by my own thought especially when it comes to self-control. I can be impulsive sometimes especially in buying things. I have no more savingšŸ„² I used to be so good in saving money but look at me now. I'm literally negative every month. Yup! Every single month. 

This is the most crucial habit that I want to change yet I'm still struggling with it. This could be one of my way of coping with something inside me, perhaps? 

I truly am grateful with my life but I can't say that I didn't wish for things to happen differently sometimes. 

I can proudly say that I'm way better than I was from 2 years ago but there's still room for improvement. Still aiming to be the best version of myself... 

Adios Amigos. 
Jesus loves us. 

2025 July, 07 (Monday)

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